So this year so far has been……not what i expected.
Me and John moved back to Keokuk, defenitly NOT something that i wanted to do. This household can be sooo stressful. And, sometimes, i literally want to kick everyone in the effen face. Not good.
But in may the lease is up and we can be on our own agian. I wont have to clean up after everyone else, or deal with crazyness that is out of my control. I would just much rather have my own space. And I would like to be able to walk around my house in my underwear. No joke.
But until then i am stuck here, so i am going to make the best of it. I have been staying home with my daughter for over a year now. And i am going CRAZY. I love her to death, but i would like to be able to miss her. I have stayed home as long as I can. I just want to be able to support myself. I dont want to have to ask John for money when he gets paid. I know that he doesnt care, but i do. I dont want John to bear all of the burdon of taking care of this family.
O and i have a gyno appt. today…………..FML
